Once there was a.... (Finale)

She met a tornado of thoughts after the day she realized her happiness is not being with him.
She spent her nights staring the moon playing with white clouds, in the dark sky. She questioned herself alot of times. She never wanted to be the reason of any tear falling from his eye.

She called him "hi!"
"Hi, my love!" He replied.
"Are you drunk?" She noticed his accent.
"A little bit. Out with friends tonight" he replied
"Oouh.. sorry. Enjoy with them. We can talk later." She said and was about to cut the call.
"No, we are just talking about you only. I'm so lucky to have you. Infact, my friends too wonder,  how can you can date a guy like me?"
She smiled and asked "Really?"
"Yes! Thank you for being with me." His words made her to think again about my words.
"I love you." She said and disconnected the call without waiting for his reply.

She walked to the patio and relaxed on the chair and kept looking into the sky for hours.
She thought about those days when she was craving for love, and for him she was just an option till he get the one he  actually deserves.

She smiled and recite the line for the sky to listen what he said to her.... "untill the time I don't get my dreamgirl, you can be my girlfriend because I have no other better option for now."

She closed her eyes and wiped the tear rolling and smiled at the laughter he made just after she asked "what?" as a reaction on the sentence he said and turned into the joke.

She was a joke to him all the time,
And today just because his friend said something, may be  to get paid for his drink, it recalled him of my love.

She spent her entire night thinking about every incident when she needed him and always found herself alone.
She now, doesn't trust him anymore.
Everytime, she even think to approach him for some help she either get excuses or the taunts of being a failure
She now knew that she deserves to be alone instead of in the relationship that is causing a giant cavity in her life.

They met,
She hold his hand ,
And told him that she is not happy in this relationship. Instead of supporting her decision he accused her that she must be cheating on him with some other guy.

That actually broke her. I clearly remember her reply. She said "Yes! I was cheating....from always. I was cheating myself for being with you. The time I should have given to myself, my pleasure, my happiness, my career, my worth... I gave that to you. I cheated myself with you."

They both cried alot that day. I don't know the reason for his tears.
But she.... She was crying because she betrayed her weaker version.

I won't lie that she stayed happily ever after that,
But yes! She stayed strong. She now knows well, that her peace is not in being with someone strong... but in the search of the strength in her own core.

Once there was a..... (Part -II)

She lost the self confidence but not the hope.
She loved him like no one else can.
She cared for him like no other can.

I remember the day, i was sitting in the patio and she came, sat on the ground and she put her head on my laps.
She said
"I'm not happy, but yes, I'm the reason of his smile.
I'm not living the love .... like I always wanted. But yes, his eyes shines with me and when I see him smiling, everytime I find him happy.... I do smile.
But yes.. I'm loosing myself for making me perfect for him.
Am I wrong?"
"Wrong?" I looked at her while combing her soft hair with my fingers.
She continued "yes! This should never be any reason to get confused like this. Why can't I be happy for him, his happiness, his joy, his satisfaction.
Why can't I make myself to feel good without any hesitation?
Why.... 

Am I this much selfish?
Doesn't he deserve to be happy like this?"

"Don't you deserve to be happy from ur core?" I questioned.
"I don't know anything" she looked up and it was a tear rolling out from her eye on the cheek that  looked like a golden pearl cz of the red sky of evening.

I asked her to look at the sky.... See the dusk.
"Sun sets... Everyday. But it always know that it'll rise next day.
Do you have idea... When will you be happy, while being in this relationship?
He is happy with you cz you are giving.
When will you get the same love .... that you always gave to him."

She looked into my eyes. But didn't utter a single word.

May be, she too was looking for the same answer.

Once there was a.....

It's been more than 4 years, still she can remember that all like it happened just yesterday.
That first love😍..... Those butterfly feeling in stomach 😂.... Everything.

She wanted to be his support in his hard times but she didn't know..... how?
In his bitterly hard time.... She wanted to be with him to say everything will be all right.

I remember, she wore his favourite colour blue and drove to his place for the first time.
She reached, hugged him and was saying every beautiful word to lighten his heavy heart. But ..
She felt a hand moving in her dress, she pushed him and said I'm not here for this all. Please, don't do that.
I want that... And don't worry, nothing much will happen. You too will enjoy it. It's fun. He said
He look into her eyes... Don't you trust me?

She started to say... This is not about trust things. I'm not ready for this now. Try to understand. I don't want it. If you want it.... Lemme go then and. . . . 

He put his huge hand over her mouth and unbuttoned her pants. She was moving like a fish without water. He then put his hand on her throat and pressed it hard. It was hard for her to inhale, she was trying to get herself free.
But she couldn't.
After he set her free... She completed her words what kinda trust I should do on you.

He fall down on bed and was smiling. She got to know she'll never get her answers here.
She wore and left the place asap. She saw herself being followed by him.

She just didn't stop. 

There was a moment when she saw a heavy vehicle moving on road. And she decided to jump on it's way and get the peace she lost that day. 

She tried but failed.

He caught her....

I looked her from far. I walked to ask her but I noticed him and he was apologizing and she was not letting him touch her even on her shoulders.
They argued and he hugged her while she kept crying.
He hold her hand like was making some promises and left.

She with a smile, waved her hand to say bye 

and 

then turned and her eyes again starting flowing like she met a huge loss that couldn't be filled by words anytime.
She was moving her each step like a burden is moving with every next step.

I met her for the first time that day. Though I'm a girl full of life and fun... But from that day... I'm with her who can't even breath without a guilt. She lost her self respect, dignity and most important self confidence.