Narayani ki Kalam se

 कुछ गुफ्तगू जो उस रोज़ रह गई थी,

वो अभी बाकी है...

सांसे जो धड़कनों से रुसवा हुई थी,

सुलह बाकी है...

महफ़िल की रौनक भी जिसके नाम की थी,

जाम का प्याला हाथ में लिए वो प्यासा... 

                 .....शायद एक साकी है।।

--- नारायणी

आसमानी वफाएं

 दिन तो जैसे तैसे बीत जाता हैं,

शोर गुल की भीड़ में...

पर सनम, राते है,

जो बड़ी वीरानी लगती है।

तुम्हे याद करते करते,
होंठो पर मुस्कान तो आ जाती है...

पर आंखे तुम्हारे बिना,

बस खारे में डूबी रहती है।

कोई शिकवा नहीं,
तुम्हारी बेवफाई से मुझे...

ना नाराजगी प्यार भरे अल्फजो से,

पर हां... वफाओं की बाते अब कुछ आसमानी सी लगती है ।।

--- नारायणी

My ink shouts...1

I know... Neither my existence in such a huge Universe can create some change nor my absence can create the oceans anymore saltier. 

I never know... How much the vacum have the comets... but all I know is that... I'm too small to stop them striking my heart with an explosion and break it into ashes.

I know is about me... I existed... Or will keep my existence to achieve some crest... No matters if I'm looking at the top from the deepest valley with my vision...

Vision to see the world growing, to see the world reading, to see the minds exploring and hearts wandering in the emptiness of core.

Namo Narayana...!

Narayana 🥀

I fold my hands and close my eyes

Everytime i come towards your light.

You show me a mirror...

To reflect my core so clear,

The strength, courage, and purity

Highlightens... against all the murky.

Everytime,

I fold my hands and close my eyes...

You reflect me and all my strengths.

Narayana, your shine fall on my core

To make me Narayani little more.

---Narayani

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I #loved myself way more than I #ever did.
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#Positivity is all about your #state_of_mind. And love for the #extreme #core of positivity will #keep this positivity #everlasting.
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कुछ मेरे हिस्से का...

पूरी किताब ना सही,
कोई एक किस्सा तो मुझसे होगा ही...

किसी की मोहब्बत न तो दोस्ती में,
मेरा कुछ तो हिस्सा होगा ही...

चांद भले ना सही,

मेरे हिस्से में कुछ आसमान तो होगा ही।

बंद अलमारियों में छिपी कोई तस्वीर ना सही,
पर आज भी उन पुरानी किताबों मे तो मेरा दिया फूल होगा ही...

सावन में भीगी साथ बारिशों को नहीं,
शायद तेज़ धूप में मेरे साए को याद किया होगा ही...

चांद भले ना सही,

मेरे हिस्से में कुछ आसमान तो होगा ही।

दुनिया या दरिया के किनारे तो नहीं,
पर उन तंग गलियों से गुजरते वक्त__

               याद तुमने भी कभी तो किया होगा ही...

सुहानी सुबह और रंगीन शामो में ना सही,
लेकिन अंधेरी अकेली रातों में__

               मेरा कभी एक बार तो नाम लिया होगा ही...

चांद भले ना सही,

मेरे हिस्से में कुछ आसमान तो होगा ही।

--- नारायणी

Once there was a.... (Finale)

She met a tornado of thoughts after the day she realized her happiness is not being with him.
She spent her nights staring the moon playing with white clouds, in the dark sky. She questioned herself alot of times. She never wanted to be the reason of any tear falling from his eye.

She called him "hi!"
"Hi, my love!" He replied.
"Are you drunk?" She noticed his accent.
"A little bit. Out with friends tonight" he replied
"Oouh.. sorry. Enjoy with them. We can talk later." She said and was about to cut the call.
"No, we are just talking about you only. I'm so lucky to have you. Infact, my friends too wonder,  how can you can date a guy like me?"
She smiled and asked "Really?"
"Yes! Thank you for being with me." His words made her to think again about my words.
"I love you." She said and disconnected the call without waiting for his reply.

She walked to the patio and relaxed on the chair and kept looking into the sky for hours.
She thought about those days when she was craving for love, and for him she was just an option till he get the one he  actually deserves.

She smiled and recite the line for the sky to listen what he said to her.... "untill the time I don't get my dreamgirl, you can be my girlfriend because I have no other better option for now."

She closed her eyes and wiped the tear rolling and smiled at the laughter he made just after she asked "what?" as a reaction on the sentence he said and turned into the joke.

She was a joke to him all the time,
And today just because his friend said something, may be  to get paid for his drink, it recalled him of my love.

She spent her entire night thinking about every incident when she needed him and always found herself alone.
She now, doesn't trust him anymore.
Everytime, she even think to approach him for some help she either get excuses or the taunts of being a failure
She now knew that she deserves to be alone instead of in the relationship that is causing a giant cavity in her life.

They met,
She hold his hand ,
And told him that she is not happy in this relationship. Instead of supporting her decision he accused her that she must be cheating on him with some other guy.

That actually broke her. I clearly remember her reply. She said "Yes! I was cheating....from always. I was cheating myself for being with you. The time I should have given to myself, my pleasure, my happiness, my career, my worth... I gave that to you. I cheated myself with you."

They both cried alot that day. I don't know the reason for his tears.
But she.... She was crying because she betrayed her weaker version.

I won't lie that she stayed happily ever after that,
But yes! She stayed strong. She now knows well, that her peace is not in being with someone strong... but in the search of the strength in her own core.

Once there was a..... (Part -II)

She lost the self confidence but not the hope.
She loved him like no one else can.
She cared for him like no other can.

I remember the day, i was sitting in the patio and she came, sat on the ground and she put her head on my laps.
She said
"I'm not happy, but yes, I'm the reason of his smile.
I'm not living the love .... like I always wanted. But yes, his eyes shines with me and when I see him smiling, everytime I find him happy.... I do smile.
But yes.. I'm loosing myself for making me perfect for him.
Am I wrong?"
"Wrong?" I looked at her while combing her soft hair with my fingers.
She continued "yes! This should never be any reason to get confused like this. Why can't I be happy for him, his happiness, his joy, his satisfaction.
Why can't I make myself to feel good without any hesitation?
Why.... 

Am I this much selfish?
Doesn't he deserve to be happy like this?"

"Don't you deserve to be happy from ur core?" I questioned.
"I don't know anything" she looked up and it was a tear rolling out from her eye on the cheek that  looked like a golden pearl cz of the red sky of evening.

I asked her to look at the sky.... See the dusk.
"Sun sets... Everyday. But it always know that it'll rise next day.
Do you have idea... When will you be happy, while being in this relationship?
He is happy with you cz you are giving.
When will you get the same love .... that you always gave to him."

She looked into my eyes. But didn't utter a single word.

May be, she too was looking for the same answer.